Left in silence

I've been trying to cut myself off from my social life. I deactivated my Facebook. I changed my blog link. The only thing still available is my twitter. And look? Does anyone care?
I'm not one of those people who can create a pandemonium when they're suddenly missing from Facebook. Sure, loads have noticed, but they're the people who should be noticing. Faham tak?
It only makes me more sure of my decision.

I told my horsey to change my password and deactivated it. hehehe, so whenever I get bored I use his instead which is a lot less interesting. Therefore increasing my productivity.
No, I don't mind. I'm not narcissistic.

Apparently, my life here has been getting worse. For these past few weeks, I feel as though I'm new here. A freshie trying to fit in and make friends. But thank God for my roommates and classmates. They do make me smile.
I've accepted it, though. I've accepted the fact that I will just not have someone who will walk with me 24/7. To prep, to surau, to everywhere.
I basically miss Farhanah. I guess no one can ever replace her :)

Girls just need that kind of person. They can't live like nomads. Girls need someone special, and not a big circle of friends. And I'm a girl.

Anyway, UPSS 2 is next week and WHY AM I NOT STUDYING?! Farhana, awak ni teruk tau? I will definitely feel frustrated at myself for wasting all this precious time. But I guess a break is good for me.

What I need right now is home. A comfy bed. A big box of chocolates. One of those cliche, you-can-guess-the-ending-from-the-start romantic/comedy movies. My panda. And just, calmness.
All this bustling around, the rushing - it's making my neurons tangle up. Making me just short of going insane.

You know what else I want? I want the ability to speak French flawlessly. I'm cool liddat. Kthxbai.