Words

I'm not good with words. I never was. I could never express myself well. I have all these ideas in my head but when I try to express them with words, I come out with absolutely nothing. Null.

All I could ever do was relate. Relate to other people's stories. Relate to songs. Relate to books. I hold on to those things - desperate to have a way of expressing myself.

I choose songs - careful to listen to those that relate to my life. Just so that I could say "I've felt this before" or "This is definitely true".

I am not original nor creative. People deafen my ears repeating over and over again how everyone has a creative side. I just can't find mine.

I read a pile of books, read people's words, desperate to find my own. But nothing ever comes to mind...

I can't identify my feelings. I just have to accept that I am a maths person. And all I will ever get to do is relate to other people.

Let my own feelings be unexpressed.